The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I’m not one of those crazy girls

Maybe Now I’m one of those crazy girls , but I’m not one of those crazy girls .
I just want to see you. Sometimes i'm miss you so much. But i don't wanna be a crazy girls.
Thanks for everything that you've give to me. I will always remember the first time we meet and together.
How we spent our time where we have a free time together. I think this is the last for me, but God Has the different way for me and you. If we're created for together we will together again. I don't know where and when , but just believe in God that it's the best way for us. For our life and our family. I will always love you even though you will forget me. Just remember that i will be there for you every time you need me :)

My inspired people (1) - Hayley Williams (Paramore)

Hayley Williams
(born December 27, 1988)

She is my amazing Idol. I love her voice, her style and everything. She is funny (i think, i see a few video of her). She is cute and have a cute character. She is always know how make people happy with her song, her band. She loves her band so much, that's why i'm often hear her say that PARAMORE is a band. Yeah she is the lead vocal of my favourite band PARAMORE. Hayley so kind to her fans. I see some pictures of her take a photo with her fans. I'm always dreaming that i can meet her and doing something fun with her. Hayley, if you're reading this i hope you having fun and not getting mad to me. I just want to tell the world that i loves and inspired by you. I'm always get spirit when listening PARAMORE's Song. Hayley's voice is so cool and make me get my spirit again. Keep rocking the world Hayley. You're amazing and i love you :)

Love Life

There is not a single word in the whole world
That could describe the hurt
The dullest knife just sawing back and forth, 
And ripping through the softest skin there ever was

How were you to know?
Oh how were you to know?

And I, I hate to see your heart break
I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close
But I’ve been there before

Love, happens all the time
To people who aren’t kind
And heroes who are blind
Expecting perfect scripted movie scenes
But what’s an awkward silence mystery?

That's a lyrics of my new favourite song. I don't know who i loved. But , God i just want to love someone who take me to your heaven. I know so many mistakes that i've been doing. And all the hurts that i feels is not enough to pay it. I just want to live with someone who cares, Love me, my family and of course Love You God. Now i have a guy that maybe he has love me, but in the future i don't know. I just pray that i've found the right man. He will take care of me when i'm afraid. And makes me smile when i feel down. I hope that the right man will be coming soon. Maybe this is the right man that i've waiting for, please protect me and him to holding hand and face the world together :)

Hidup Penuh Warna

Belakangan ini hidupku mulai berwarna, ga monoton kerja pagi, pulang sore, n mlm ngerjakan tugas.

Hidupku lebih berwarna karena ada nuansa-nuansa baru. Jum'at 15 Maret 2013 aku berhenti kerja. Yah ini membuat rutinitas monotonku berhenti. Karena sudah tidak ada jam kerja aku bisa bebas kemana saja dan kapan saja. Aku pun bisa keliling untuk cari kerja yang baru. Yah mungkin terdengar menyenangkan. Tapi ternyata ini sulit. Belum lagi masalah pribadi lain yang datang .

Memang benar Kita tidak akan meninggal sebelum merasakan apa yang kita lakukan pada orang lain.

Setelah aku berhenti kerja dan jadi emosional, sekarang aku merasakan orang lain yang diterpa banyak masalah dan menjadi emosional padaku. Warna baru lagi ini didalam hidup. Setelah biasanya setiap hari bermanis-manis dan mesra, sekarang sedikit agak berbeda. Yah inilah warna baru. Kalau tidak begini maka hidup akan monoton dan tanpa warna. Membosankan bukan. Namun dalam setiap warna pasti ada sesuatu yang lebih indah yang Allah rencanakan. Kita hanya bisa menjalani dan dengan ikhlas menerima semua warna yang diberikan pada hidup kita.